Once upon a time my life was a series of obligations. I was self-conscious and a people pleaser. On top of that, I was constantly putting my happiness off to a later date (“I’ll be happy when ____”).
Though everything seemed to be going well on the outside, on the inside I felt alone and empty. I wasn’t confident and struggled with depression. I attracted relationships into my life that made me feel undervalued and less-than.
Back then I spent my days “getting by” rather than living passionately. Most days it was a struggle just to get out of bed in the morning. Perhaps the craziest part of all is that I didn’t even realize that there was anything out of place or wrong. After all, all of my friends counted the days until the weekend too!
Today, things in my life are unrecognizable from the way they were back then. So much so that I rarely even know what day of the week it is because all of my days are full of experiences and activities that bring me joy.
I make a living from being myself and using my gifts in a way that is exhilarating to my soul and gives my life deep meaning, I wake up each morning stoked to be me: I feel alive, sexy and confident 99% of the time (the other one percent simply accounts for being human!).
The icing on the cake is that I have the most incredible and loving relationships and am truly, madly and deeply in love with myself, my life and the people in it.
Of course, all of this would have been inconceivable to me just a few years ago.
So. WHAT CHANGED?
My personal transformation began after being hit with a dual diagnosis of Thyroid Cancer and Chronic Autoimmune Lyme Disease in my early twenties. Fighting for my life, I made a pact with myself that, if I were ever to get a second chance, I would live my life to the absolute fullest.
In retrospect, getting sick was an incredible blessing because it woke me up to the fact that I had been living a completely inauthentic existence. It motivated me to imagine a new reality that would be worth surviving for.
In that headspace, I began making choices from the idea of “What would I LOVE to do” rather than “What SHOULD I do.” I started putting myself first and stopped outsourcing my power to those around me. I began addressing my limiting beliefs and negative self-talk and watched as my whole world transformed.
Amazingly, as I made these mental and emotional shifts, my body and health shifted too. After making a full recovery in 2012, I pledged to pay forward the gift I had been given by bringing the information that saved my life to mainstream culture: the idea that our thoughts and belief systems create our reality.
Whether I’m teaching people how to embody their highest potential and step into their most loving and attractive selves, leading my creative empowerment community, performing, or relaying truth via social media, there is literally nothing that excites me more than transmitting inspiration and knowledge to those who are ready to shift out of complacency and into a life they’re stoked on.
My purpose in life is to let people know that there is a way of living that they don’t teach us in school. One that has absolutely nothing to do with the word should, that does not involve working hard, saving up for retirement, or waiting all week for the weekend to come… One that does not involve depending on our external circumstances for happiness.
So. What does it involve?
It involves changing our perception and learning how to be happy in this moment RIGHT NOW. It involves becoming successful and deeply fulfilled by following our dreams and pursuing our passions. It involves affecting change from the inside out, recognizing our personal power, CHOOSING OUR DREAM REALITY AND CONSCIOUSLY CREATING IT.